and never come back. I want to loose contact with everyone I know right now and just go live a completely different life.
Mackenzie was saying we should go to London, and it sounds stupid because we barely started hanging out and even though I’d like to go there are a million reasons that popped into my head of why we can’t go - money being one of the main ones.
But the thing is, I have money saved for college - not a lot, but enough. And I don’t see why I should go to college. It’s going to just be more of the same thing. I mean, sure it’ll be a different place and different people, but it’s just more of my planned out life that I’m not interested in at all.
I want to leave, and even though I come up with tons of reasons why I shouldn’t, I think the only real one is that I’m too scared. I only know how to do things that have been planned, and I’m not prepared for anything other than what I’m comfortable with.
I have to get out of here.